we are only made of air and dust

sinonymity nudged me about making a holiday wish list (and if you guys have made one, please let me know in the comments - I'd like to see if there is something I could do for you) and it was hard, probably harder than the anonymous comment meme (which I think I may not do after all. Oops.) Mostly because it's the circumstances I'm in and the chill in the weather and how I just seem to be in a half awake state these days. I'm so tired.

if wishes were horses - I'd be galloping away

1. Someone to go to Japan with me. I like South Korea a lot. In fact, I'm looking out for a way to stay for another year, but with another school (PUBLIC) and another boss (A MILLION TIMES THIS), but right now it is very much WORK to me. I want to play and get away. I'm done with being an independent lone wolf, I need to be up with people. In Japan. I'm thinking of doing a mini break in February. This wish may be adapted to become Seoul if funds become tight, but yeah...a traveling companion.

2. My co teacher really likes gummy bears. The gummy candy they have in Korea is fine, but it's not gummy bears or Swedish fish, and since she's been a life saver in some tough jams, I'd like to get some gummy bears for her (and swedish fish!). amezri is sending me gummy bears and also American Junk Food (TM)

3. An email or a letter (pending my new mail address, obviously). Tell me about your life. I've been a shitty correspondent and lost touch with some people - I get it, we're all busy, but I'd really like to reconnect/or connect with you again. Why are you my friend? Or if you don't feel like that, tell me a story. I love stories.

4. A jetpens.com gift certificate or a pro flickr account upgrade

5. Mix cds. I used to love making these. It was one of my many semi-useful skills and I made them for everyone regardless of whether I had a crush on them or not. I even used to make mix tapes (this was in the dinosaur era and there are some embarrassing ones I made for a boy I was in love with internet flirting with when I was all of seventeen years old) and usually I made them because I wanted to share some music I really loved with the people I loved/liked/wanted to impress my musical inclinations on/just thought their day needed something.

I think I was pretty good at making a mix cd but there's always the worry that some people just aren't going to get it - musical taste being subjective and all, but I like to think I had more hits than misses. Then I got this amazing email from mistakency, who graciously let me quote her -

But this CD - it's just! Four years later and the transitions are perfect! I cannot believe no one else gets to enjoy them! That's a crime.

This afternoon I was listening to the untitled one that begins with Esthero raging about Ashanti, and I want to tell you that I played it during a high school trip once and everyone went silent and listened when "Calculation Theme" came on. AND THEN THAT ENTIRE ROOM FULL OF PEOPLE I LOVED WENT HOME AND DOWNLOADED THEMSELVES SOME METRIC. aaaaah favorite moment for life, and you were responsible.

And then I remember the time I was in Scotland on a tour bus and I brought along some mix cds and I sidled up to the (unnervingly attractive) guide/driver and asked him if he could play the cd and he smiled at me and said yes, and we listened to a lot of Scottish indie and good old fashioned anthem rock and yes, I snuck in Travis - because SCOTLAND. I may not remember all the songs that were on the cd - I have a bad habit of not writing down lists for many of my mix cds when they're for me, but I remember the feeling of being on that bus, my head against the window watching the highlands blur and being so happy that I was there, in that moment and place.

Music to me is as necessary and food and air and someone I love saying my name. It's essential.

The cranky pants love meme because I think we all need it this week. February, you are on NOTICE.

Filling out two memes from tinyangl and cynicalism.

1. The year end wrap up. 2. The love and adoration meme.

( well, 2009, how did you stack up? )

and now for the love and adoration meme: which is easy - reply to this post and I will tell you how immeasurably you have improved my life and why you are such an awesome little cupcake.

thanks to calixa for the link

Oh dear, you are Bookish, aren't you? You are a highly intelligent and witty bluestocking, whose beauty is hidden behind spectacles. Your dress sense is eccentric and a little unfashionable, and you consider yourself plain. You have very little use for men, who find your knowledge of Shakespeare, interest in politics and forthright speech formidable. You are undoubtedly well-off. The only reason for your presence in a novel of this kind (which, I might add, you would not dream of reading, although you have occasionally enjoyed the works of Miss Austen), is your mother, who is absolutely determined that you will make a good marriage. Rather than defying her directly, you are quietly subversive, dancing with anyone who asks you, but making no attempt to hide your intellectual interests. The only person who can get past your facade is the man who is witty enough to spar with you, and be amused at your blatant attempts to scare your suitors away. While you will, no doubt, subject him to a gruelling cross-examination to find out whether his respect for your intelligence is real or mere flattery, you may be sure that he is your match, and that you, he AND your mother will all live happily ever after

What kind of Romance Heroine are you?

from this site

Your husband's name is Matsumoto Jun and you have 2 children. You're a stripper who drives to work every day in a violet rickshaw.

It's truly a wonderful life when you consider the countless romantic nights you have spent with Matsumoto Jun in your shack in scotland.

Maybe I could be a selective stripper. Just take off my shoes or something. Or endurance stripping! Tons of layers on. Scarves, necklaces, roman gladiator shoes with those funky strings - and it would take me HOURS to remove all of it.

But still. I got evil-sama on my first try, and we live in SCOTLAND.

My other choices were: Takeshi Kaneshiro, Callum Blue, John Cho, and Hiro Mizushima. Of course I ended up with the one non English speaking husband, but that's OKAY. THIS IS THE POWER OF MY LOVE.

I'm on a roll (sesame seed! *flat drumroll*) tonight. And don't forget....I'm taking pictures by request!

( Pictures of my LiveJournal Friends )


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It's snowfire's fault

Oh fandom lj, how long have I neglected you.

I've just had so many plans in the past few days - sparkly, bright fun plans! Ideas for stories, lj-templates I would like to try out, mixes to make -- yes, I have been very busy in fannish pursuits indeed. But the rain and general laziness of the past few days have prevented me from updating.

Okay, all right, I was also in bed watching Korean soap operas and ENJOYING IT, and now I have homework to do for the communities, but before I do that: a poem, and a meme.

( the voice )

( Four Things )